A Catch
It gave her an unnecessary sense of urgency. This urgency felt like it was pushing her to leave that precise moment, even though she had happily existed in that space before that word had intruded her.
She sunk lower into her questions. He was right there in front of her, the moment was perfect for what it was. He was carefully gathering ingredients as to not wake his housemates. When she had told him she didn’t get to have dinner, he said he wanted to cook her spaghetti. It was 11:38pm, way too late in the night to be cooking.
It seemed effortless, when his back was turned at the stove, she hugged him tight, then slow. She ran her hand gently up and down his upper thigh. She felt the creases of his effortless muscles. Because of their almost ten inch difference in height, it felt natural for her to rest her hand on his pelvis and thigh, close enough to feel the warmth of his core.
It was a delightful feeling to know someone like this, someone who is a catch by all means. To have this moment with this man, it felt surreal. She was captured by this dream like thought, this dream like moment.
He cooked, he fed and he cleaned. All at midnight. He looked at her sleepily, but content.
She worried just for a moment as she caught his yawn, that she had been intruding. But with him, it didn’t seem like intrusion. Instead, it felt like a reunion. As if he had been there for her all this time, and just checking in now due to life’s circumstances. Maybe we just needed to find ourselves first, and now that spaces had opened up within us, we finally had found the time to meet.
“What a noble idea”, she thought.
She finished her warm bowl of spaghetti and salad with cherry tomatoes. She felt nourished all over, and she understood that was just enough for her. She had gotten enough amusement from those ideas bouncing in her head, so she inched away from those chasing thoughts and stepped into his arms. That was just enough for her running thoughts to stop and dissipate into the spaces that were made. She felt relieved, and felt enough.